He Knows Me!

As my thoughts are settling and my mind is calming down and focusing on tomorrow, the Lord's Day. I am reminded of a conversation I had while soul-winning this week. A dear lady said that she was looking for a church that she was "comfortable with" and during the conversation I explained to her that church is not going to make me comfortable but a church should make you feel welcome. I explained that the closer I get to the Lord the more I see my weakness and my sin and that is not comfortable. However there is never be a time on this earth when God will not welcome me into his arms as a humble child.

 We all seem to have a hidden fear that if our closest friends really knew all our sins and all our hidden motives and all of our evil thoughts they would not remain our friend. They would avoid me or even reject me. I would be alone! We also fear the same thing of God. If God really knew all my thoughts and all my sin he would disown me. According to Psalm 139 there is nothing about me that God does not know. He knows my sin, my motives,  my thoughts, my fears and the inner most secrets of my heart. Yet even though he knows all of this he does not abandon me. Listen to what he says.  

Psalm 139:17-18 "How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee." 

He still cares for me! He still thinks of me! This reality should cause us to bow our head in worship and say "what an awesome God!" 

What about that uncomfortable feeling of facing God with my sin and failures? When we see his unconditional love and then we will be free to cry out with the psalmist... 
"Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any[wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."